Dairy Journals

 Wish could explain in words how much love you. But I can't because there aren't any words to describe the love I feel for you... miss you also. But I'm not going to let the distance keep me from loving you, even if it's from far. I want you to know that I'll always be there for you. I'll be your shoulder to lean on, your distraction, when you want to escape, and everything else in between. I know we have a long road ahead of us but I'm willing to stick through it. And hope you are willing too. No matter the bad that has happened or will happen, always remember that you are so special to me and have a special place in my heart, and mind.

 hey hi ..., first of all I'm terrible sorry for being a such a dork for the whole week.. thank you so much for not leavig when I'm being  dork.... thank you for bearing when I'm high I wish i had reason for explanation but i got nothin but one thing for sure i don't wanna ruin the connection or frnd ship we had so as said i drink no more for whole october from now.... thank you for taking care of me when i'm high  once again sorry for my brhaviour finally love u ra

 I understand that you're feeling lots of emotions, but remember that none of this is your fault.., but I'm right here with you, and I will make sure you safe

 If u were in the mood to hear me out. I would like to give u a piece of advice.. U said u wanna be bitch again leave the trauma for others.. that's a good thing actually...,Even I do go bitchin sometimes, I zone out people, I don't talk to any.., and the best thing u get to be peaceful for sometime..,Hmm mmmh but I just wanna know for how long it would last, cuz I wanna get ready for that thing...., I can't withstand it., last u went like that I was lost, went crazy for days... Man who knows abt my thoughts that time i was like..😵., And I'm not saying u to stay normal go bitchin but for sometime..., Because you got people go hell with others this time I'm selfish, you got boy/man whatever it is ,he is fuckin lovin u, he cares for you, and he can't stay longer without., And I want you back after sometime...🥹

 This person could be acting aloof and distant but let me help you by taking off their facade They want to communicate with you, yes they genuinely do. They are hoping to reconnect as they want to apologise for what they did to you and being so selfish. They always knew that they had an intense connection with you but they just didn't want to commit for long terms .They were too distracted in making other choices their priority which forced you to end this relationship or walk away .Lots of lies came to surface which made things worse .The whole situation got overwhelming for both of you and eventually you had to let it go. Yes the person is stubborn and has a streak of ego which surely makes them not come out with apology but they deep down have self realisation in order to have you they need to apologise to you.They know their lies are out and as self defence they acted indifferent and walked away. So yes they want to communicate with you now but at the same time they are defensi...

 I feel lost, confused. I’m heartbroken, the girl I always wanted has come in my life, and I got to know her. I really wanted to date her, but the day I asked her, she said she was in love! I started wait cuz I'm selfish, I was her friend. We were actually very great friends. Then, her boyfriend left her. I wanted to ask her out at that moment, however I knew she would want time to rest, thus I didn’t ask her. I gave her weeks, months. Then finally asked her, her response was very strange! She says she wants to but she can’t, that she can’t say yes, nevertheless she can’t say no. She said she wasn’t ready, I understood, but I was very confused. Now, she was dating someone else. At this point, I really wanted to give up, but I didn’t. I try my best to say I love her, nonetheless they say, you can’t love someone if they don’t love you back. Well, I guess I just didn’t believe that. I thought to myself, “I waited such a long time for a girl like her, and I will do anything in my power...

 As I sit down to pour my thoughts onto paper, memories of our time together flood my mind, and I am filled with an overwhelming sense of gratitude for the moments we've shared and the experiences we've had. From the first time we met, I knew that there was something unique about you. Your captivating smile, infectious laugh, and warm personality drew me in, and as we got to know each other, I discovered more and more reasons to be grateful for your presence in my life. There are countless things that I love about you. I love the way your eyes light up when you talk about your passions, the way your hair falls elegantly around your face, and the sound of your voice, which fills me with comfort and joy. I cherish your sense of humor, which never fails to lift my spirits and brighten my day. But above all, I adore the way you make me feel when I'm with you - happy, content, and at ease. As I write this thing, I can't help but yearn to be with you once more. I long for the...

 21-04-2023 I just can’t be myself bro. I get used to keep my shit with myself so I can’t be a burden for anyone. Because I got no one around me when I’m broken, and I got no proper friend for long time. Everyone stayed around me, just here for reason that they can use me. My parents think they emotionally support me fuck what they think, my parents don’t even know what the hell I’m doing, what I’m into. I’m not saying I got no friends. I got them but with a value of tissue in their life. Everyone is the same except few. With I got used to the fact everyone is temporary and I accepted the fact I don’t need anyone.  Then I got some group people who showed me some respect for who am I. They accepted me for who am I. I don’t feel good even around them too. Because they only think about me when I’m with them. I’m not saying they need to take care of me at all times. But the thing they only answer the call and reply the messages. They never started something. I got used to fact tha...